Post by hrafnr on May 31, 2008 9:08:20 GMT -5
Dear All,
Ok, now that i have a bit more time I wanted to articulate a few things. I told people yesterday I wouldn't be back to the boards - mainly because IMO that amounts to me being a troll. However a few people seem genuinely confused about some of my comments and I didn't want you all to think I was blowing you off.
Zab - I don't want you to perceive my shortness to you as dismissal. Not only was I literally running out the door to work... My intent was to make a statement and leave so as NOT to pollute the boards with negativity and circular drama. And I then discovered I couldn't lock my thread. Thus my post here as I don't want to leave you all hanging on a sour note. I appreciate you being blunt, even if I really didn't understand the statements. But - I certainly am not worried about it all (to be frank, these past two weeks, I've had A LOT of things not online to worry about).
Just so its been said - I'm not mad or resentful towards anyone; I genuinely see it as having different ways to want to enjoy the game...as it was made apparent to me in various private conversations in the last few weeks when casually discussing ideas...and finding the feedback to said proposals unenthusiastic. No harm, no fault, no foul. As far as the interpersonal issues alluded to in my post they have been at least addressed and that makes me feel better.
In terms of the sense that some of my ideas and policies actually caused harm to the Pillagers as a whole - this was vocalized to me in private conversations in a non-confrontational way. Again, it isn't a personal attack against anyone and I didn't take it that way. Just different interests. The Pillagers is still the best social unit I've seen online.
Again, we could debate all this in a circular fashion for months and from different viewpoints - we'd all be right or wrong. However I DO know people had issues and even when asked directly they didn't vocalize them to me. Again, whatever... I'm just overly north jersey blunt sometimes without realizing it.
My primary reasons for expressing a desire to leave comes from an interest in taking the game in a different direction and at least from my viewpoint - a level of interest not shared by most of this Kin. Thats fine. I truly believe it is foremost a game and everyone should play it however they want. And I AM glad the Pillagers are enjoying the game the way they are!
After thinking on it and really evaluating why I play these games right now (yes, even AoC takes a back seat to real life )... I at this point don't plan to abandon the Kin and will leave at least Hrafnr and Porter in so long as no one has an objection... and go ahead with the plans of perhaps starting a smaller heavy RP kinship for those interested in the coming months. When I actually have time. 
And if anyone has an objection to my hanging out - please voice it - I'd rather hear it now! Really, I can take it!
And if you see me on, holler for help in any case.
Thanks,
H
Ok, now that i have a bit more time I wanted to articulate a few things. I told people yesterday I wouldn't be back to the boards - mainly because IMO that amounts to me being a troll. However a few people seem genuinely confused about some of my comments and I didn't want you all to think I was blowing you off.
Zab - I don't want you to perceive my shortness to you as dismissal. Not only was I literally running out the door to work... My intent was to make a statement and leave so as NOT to pollute the boards with negativity and circular drama. And I then discovered I couldn't lock my thread. Thus my post here as I don't want to leave you all hanging on a sour note. I appreciate you being blunt, even if I really didn't understand the statements. But - I certainly am not worried about it all (to be frank, these past two weeks, I've had A LOT of things not online to worry about).
Just so its been said - I'm not mad or resentful towards anyone; I genuinely see it as having different ways to want to enjoy the game...as it was made apparent to me in various private conversations in the last few weeks when casually discussing ideas...and finding the feedback to said proposals unenthusiastic. No harm, no fault, no foul. As far as the interpersonal issues alluded to in my post they have been at least addressed and that makes me feel better.
In terms of the sense that some of my ideas and policies actually caused harm to the Pillagers as a whole - this was vocalized to me in private conversations in a non-confrontational way. Again, it isn't a personal attack against anyone and I didn't take it that way. Just different interests. The Pillagers is still the best social unit I've seen online.
Again, we could debate all this in a circular fashion for months and from different viewpoints - we'd all be right or wrong. However I DO know people had issues and even when asked directly they didn't vocalize them to me. Again, whatever... I'm just overly north jersey blunt sometimes without realizing it.
My primary reasons for expressing a desire to leave comes from an interest in taking the game in a different direction and at least from my viewpoint - a level of interest not shared by most of this Kin. Thats fine. I truly believe it is foremost a game and everyone should play it however they want. And I AM glad the Pillagers are enjoying the game the way they are!
After thinking on it and really evaluating why I play these games right now (yes, even AoC takes a back seat to real life
)... I at this point don't plan to abandon the Kin and will leave at least Hrafnr and Porter in so long as no one has an objection... and go ahead with the plans of perhaps starting a smaller heavy RP kinship for those interested in the coming months. When I actually have time. 
And if anyone has an objection to my hanging out - please voice it - I'd rather hear it now! Really, I can take it!
And if you see me on, holler for help in any case.
Thanks,
H
